Two Months Later

So obviously it has been some time since I've last posted anything. I can't say that too much of my life has changed since then. Next Friday I will officially be divorced. I feel very strange about the whole thing with lots of mixed emotions. I'm sad, happy, disappointed, nervous, anxious, and just feel weird overall. I have no regrets at all but I find it sad that we both had to go through this difficult time. I often feel guilty because I know that no matter however out of sorts I have been feeling that my STBX must be feeling a zillion times worse. That part hurts me a lot because I feel like a selfish person and that is not who I am at my core.



I've learned so much through this entire experience and I am sure I will learn even more. The biggest lesson I've learned is that you really need to like yourself. In the end, you are all you have. While I have been lucky to have some very supportive friends and family during this time, there have been many people who have disappointed me. That could be my hang up and I might have high expectations of people.



On a positive note, I'm getting to know myself a lot more. I'm growing in ways I never thought possible. I am beginning to really love myself which is a wonderful thing. I am happy with who I am and I know I have a lot more to learn about myself and life before my time on this earth is up.



I forgot this little guy... Here is a pic of me and my nephew who has really helped me along in this process. The funny thing is, he doesn't even know what he has done for me!!